So,i know my last entry led some to some thoughts about me and i just wanted to clear things up.

Im not crying out for people to feel bad for me. It was JUST my thoughts. The reason i use xanga is cause its an online diary. I dont want anyone to sympathize or be mad that i dont tell you everything or attempt for you specifially to be my best friend. So heres me trying to explain...the past couple months were way different for me than now.
I was working as a manager full time , 40 hours a week,which is NOT easy..i know people work more so dont leave me a comment saying "I work 40 plus" cause its hard and i do understand. Also,I was going to school full time. And i had a boyfriend which was my best friend and occupied majority of my time.
NOW I demoted myself to a lead sales which works only 30 hours and trust,it makes a difference, also, im not taking summer classes so im on break from school until the end of August~ish. And my boyfriend and i have broken up.Although were still good friends,which im thankful about,were not together all the time.

Ive realized that it is MY fault that I didnt make time for my best friends and inclue everyone in my life. Now that i have more time on my hands and not so much more going on , i really want my friendships back. It takes a lot for me to admit that i was wrong in the past to let go of a lot of great friendships and a few entries back when i wrote about hanging out with old friends,i didnt lie when i said i missed it. I really am sorry.

im feeeling sooo emo but its just a what was on my mind today.

i have soo many great friends in my life that i can just hang out with or just call up and talk to but i really miss having A BEST friend..i know a lot of people say that people have many best friends..but i just want one person that i can go to with EVERTHING.one person thatll drop anything theyre doing just to hang out iwth me or hear what i haveta say.One person that i can call just whenever i want,whenever im bored and not haveta hear them start the call with "wassup?whyd you call me?"One person thatll just come to my house and well find something to do. Although i know i have so many friends i do trust and can talk to..theres not ONE that knows just everything and i miss that. i want that friend again"/

sooooo...
i am now single..yeah..i just decided that i needta pay more attention to my life and what i wanna do...and be independent.
dennis and i are still gonna be great friends cause thats what we both want.so that makes me happy..:]

just updating you silly kids that read this nonsense.

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I saw spiderman 3 at midnight last night with Dennis and i must say IT WAS AMAZING.

i laughed,,i cried..i laughed somemore..then cried somemore...

it was a great movie and i know ill be seeing it again and again

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yeeeeeeee.

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i missed you kidds.
you know who you are.
^_^v
Never let good friendship slip away and don't forget the people that mean the most.
I really am sorry I forgot about the people who meant a lot to me. Even seeing you guys for like the short time it was,it was great times, so lets have more:]]]

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